Thursday, January 25, 2007

share your story campaign

Not jumping on the celeb band wagon type of thing. Like when p diddy had that vote or die thing but wasn’t even registered to vote. HMm the hypocrisy!! Before I get side tracked.

My girl ConfusedNaijagirl has come up with a very good idea with the potential to make people start talking about stuff they really wouldn’t! So if you have a personal story send it to her at con4fused@yahoo.com.
Read her post about it here.

Friday, January 19, 2007

I never loved nobody fully

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

And suppose I never met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of course its gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better
Better better better

I never love nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting by heart truly
I got lost
In the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All this music
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

Breaks my
Heart
Breaks my heart


I guess i put this to express how i feel cos Confused outed me on her blog!!
Oh thats Regina's Specktor's song fidelity. This song captured how i feel sha.

Monday, January 08, 2007

By popular demand -my beef with african americans

Happy new year to everyone. have not updated in a while. this bloggin thing is hard to do oh!!
due to the pleas i have recieved from everyone. Ok only 2 bloggers . But 2 in my blog is like thousands everywhere else.i will blog about my being a litte prejudiced towards( i dont no us it prejudiced towards or prejudiced against or just prejudiced.... leave me jo english is just a borrowed language. I Love when teachers that shell in naija use to say this to excuse thier lack of grammer) sorry i digressed i am a little scatter brained. African americans (from now on i will refer to as afros because the other word is too long to type and i just learnt that akata is a derogratory word.
Ok so before coming to yankee i thought i would be able to understand and get along with a A Americans rather than whites because we had our skin color in commom but i was wrong.
A Americans to me it seemed were always rude and hostile to me. For instance imagine this exchange. got into a bus with a A american driver
Omo : IS this bus going to so and so place
Driver : what ?
Omo : i repeat my self , is this place going to so and so !??
Kin lo se ode yin. I am thinking
Driver: Oh so and so place . we dont call it that in america . proceeds to pronounce the place how he claims they do in the united states. Its called blah blah
What the fuck? just answer my questiion
Omo : so is it going there
Driver : you see what it says on the bus . what do you think?
In more colorful language . All the while the people in the bus are just watching the drama unfold
I asked him a simple question. i wanted a simple answer. why couldnt he just answer.
Another time in the bus again.i was really well dressed that day.If i might say so myself. i was loooking good!
Two african american dudes starting talking to me and my friend sha
We tried not to engage them to much in convo so they could see we were not interested
The convo goes along and we tell them we are nigerian. then a random african american lady with amebo ears says
Amebo : Nigerians . I dont like them. they think they are better than us. they cant even speak correctly.
Dudes : Really? are they like that.
They proceed to converse on how much nigerians think we are superior to African americans and its wrong because we come from the same place. blah blah
Personally i didnt care what they thought. But my friend called Z or is it Brocca you gave her confused?? I dont no . anywayz Z enters an arguement with them. And words were exchanged.

If things like this keep on happening to you and its people from a certain ethnicity , you cant help but feel prejudiced.
The worst experience was when me and my friends were going clubbing .You know naija girls dressed to the t and everything.
These dudes were supposed to pick us up but we didnt no they were outside the apartment so they were waiting for just 5 mins (seroiusly i wasnt that long) . They brought their african american girl friends with them.
Girlfriend 1 immediately gives us THE LOOK. I mean if looks could kill, we would be saying hello to marylin monroe by now.
Girlfriend 1 complains about how late we are. we shouldnt have done that blah blah blah. generally being a real BIATCH!!!
Dudes were not even that pissed so i wondered what here problem was.
We ignore them and converse amongst ourselves. Of course we are speaking youruba and broken english so they cant hear and making fun of them
Girlfriend 2 comments We sound strange, we have accents. where are we from. We say naija. and then she goes on a rampage about naija and nigerians about how she doesnt mess with them and they do voodoo blah blah blah.
We were pissed. Homie didnt we just tell you we were nigerians. Ok so we didnt want to start fighting with them in the car although the conversation got heated. Then we get to the club, then they really see how good we are dressed and when Friend 1 sees confused. her eyes almost pops out of their eyesockets. you could see the jealousy in her eyes. anywayz we enter the club. we leave them to do their thing and just have a good time on our own sha.
But no these girls wanted a fight.
friend 1 comes to meet us and pours a drink over one of my friends claiming she said something to her.
THATs WHERE THE SHIT HIT THE FAN. they should have targeted me because me i cant fight or confused because she is a softie but they targetted omo alata herself (b rocca) .That girl get craze no be small. Of course B rocca and friend 1 starting fighting physically. they threw us out of the club and I was PISSED because i had lost my $3o to enter the damn place AND we had to pay for a cab home because dude wouldnt take us anymore. I was really angry.
So i have had experiences like this over and over and i it makes me feel prejudiced . i am sorry!
i will try and change but i dont really like some african americans. i will try not to generalize anymore.